It's so Quiet

It finally happened... for real this time. I took Drew to Sam a little over a week ago. Gary couldn't go this time but there were some great kids there that helped us unload all of his stuff from out of the van. He has an apartment style dorm room so that means he has his own bedroom, small as it is, but clean and fairly new. I still keep waiting for him to walk through our door every day...but he doesn't. The first time it really hit me that he wouldn't be walking through our door every day was the first Saturday he was gone. The realization had barely flashed through my mind when the tears started. Things will never be the same... I'm working on that being okay. I spent the afternoon with Derek last Monday. It was just to take of some things for him but I loved every minute of getting to be with him. He is such a neat person and I pray that God will give him someone that will love and adore him the way he deserves to be loved. Dustin is settling into the Austin lifestyle. I called him the other day and he was at a cafe listening to a live band, I could hear them playing in the background. I have to constantly restrain myself from calling the boys every time I think about them. I want to know that they're physically okay, that their happy, and that they're behaving! My greatest desire for them right now is for them to be connected to a church that will be a family to them and where they can be brought closer to the Lord. "Father I know that You hold them in Your hands, please draw them close to You, watch over them, keep them safe, and send them their perfect lifemate" - amen.