I'm sitting here at 11:00 pm having gone to Sam Houston's website...again, looking at the total one more time for Drew's tuition before I send in that first payment. It brings tears to my eyes even writing this because it just reinforces the fact that my last precious boy is leaving home. It is so hard to let go. You spend what seems like a lifetime raising them but it also feels like it was just yesterday they were little and you thought you had all the time in the world. People tell you time and again when they are little to enjoy it because they grow up so fast and it's true. It seems like just yesterday we took Drew to school for his first day of kindergarten. Ginger & Calvin, Sandy & Keith and Gary & I all had to drop the kids off in their classroom. I remember how hard it was to leave. We stood out in the hallway afterwards and took pictures of the guys pretending to wipe our eyes. 18 years later we used that very picture in a senior graduation slide show at the church. Raising my children was my second greatest calling from God... the first was to be a minister's wife.
I remember when Dusty graduated... since he was the oldest it was another "first". It was exciting going through the process with him and the other boys were still there to distract me (although I did call Dustin a lot!). Then Derek left, sooner then what I was ready for. He got a job right out of high school in College Station so we didn't get to have a last summer together with him. And now, in just a few more weeks it will be official...my nest will be empty. I'm praying for God to show me how He wants to use me in this next phase of my life. My mom job isn't over but it is definitely changing. I pray daily for God to protect my boys, guide them, speak to them, and direct their paths toward the women that He would have them to marry...it is the greatest gift I can give them.
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